TRUE IMAGE OF MY AFFECTION

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amberleighjoy:

-Black Dynamite 

I loooooove Black Dynamite!

Me Too

(Source: phoenix-falls)

Let me dive deep, deep, deep into you.
Into the very essence of your being.
Deeper than the common sense transcending natural existence and into the realm of pure fantasy.
Where the right brain creates, lives, evolve into a perfect union of wants and needs and what’s need to fulfill, to satisfy those untouchable desires.
Let me be that fantasy that invades your  thoughts and stay always on
your mind.
So, keep my words in your ear and its meaning in your heart.
I’ve come to fill the void, to keep you away from the edge, the edge of depression, edge of loneliness, edge of death, death.
I want to save you from the inside out.
So, I must dive deep, deep, deep into you to see the true image of my affection.
Not the delusion you pervade but that modest woman Ive come to adore, hiding in the body that defines what beauty really is.
You are beautiful in all thy ways.
So, I’ll dive deep, deep, deep into you.
Into the very essence of your being.
Deeper then common sense, transcending natural existence and into the realm of pure fantasy.

Looking at old pictures. I come across one of me Smiling, Happy, Carefree.

I wish I was still that guy, that clueless kid in those pictures with my rose colored glasses on.

When I look in the mirror now I see a Man.

No longer learning about the world but living it, feeling it, tasting  its sweet flavor with that bitter, that antagonistic aftertaste.

I’m too young to know my mortality or be able to recognize the presents of Death. 

To hear his voice in my ear but not yet understanding his language. (THANK GOD)

Forced to see the true nature of man. TOO SOON!!! To hold death in my hands.

To be hurt so bad that my tears form oceans.

Pain forms canyons in my heart deep enough to cause physical affliction.

But I don’t feel bad for myself. I feel bad for the rest of you. I understand my situation. 

Its not all bad. She gives me hope.

Her smile… there are no words for that.

When she looks at me I feel like she really sees me.

The me I wish I could see.

Her voice is sweet.

It makes my day to see her, feel her, taste her lips.

Heaven on Earth.

(Source: facebook.com)

TO BE BLUNT I’M A MAN BROKEN.
LIFE BROKE ME DOWN.
PROBLEMS I THOUGH I WOULD NEVER HAVE I HAVE. 
IMAGES OF THE LIFE I SHOULD HAVE HUNTS ME.
IMAGES OF THE FAMILY I SHOULD HAVE SHAME ME.
BUT WHEN YOU SEE ME I SMILE. 
I JOKE.
I PLAY.
BUT INSIDE I’M A LITTLE BOY GROWING UP TO FAST.
THE THINGS I HAVE SEEN.
DONT OUT WEIGHT THE THINGS I’VE DONE.
LORD FORGIVE ME FOR BEING SO LOST IN MY PAIN.
FOR GIVING IN TO THE HURT.
FOR LETTING LOVE DEFINE WHO I WAS AND AM.
BUT EVERYDAY I FEEL ALITTLE MORE FREE.
I’M UNDERSTANDING WHO I AM.
A BOY GROWING INTO A MAN.

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